Robots and tigers...

Do you believe that dreams hold a meaning?

I had a dream in which there were people escaping from rogue floating orb-like robots, which vaguely resembled the Deathstar.... oh, and there was a final garden of tigers we'd have to pass. We, as in.. what I can assume are two different entities that represent myself.. a fat chubby man and a young, innocent girl, are the only *survivors.* Everyone else runs from panic or decides to fight these strange things, but I, as the girl, realize that you don't need to do anything. Just believing that God is watching over you is enough (I guess I kept thinking about Daniel in the lion's den over and over in my dream). The fat man somehow ends up following the girl in one of his escapes and realizes her newfound secret, which wasn't really a secret. She was telling everyone else, but they had all run away. She walks past the robots.. it's as if she is invisible to them.. The tigers on the other hand are a different story. The man thinks he should walk on the periphery of the garden containing at least a dozen tigers, but it only makes them more agitated. The girl continues to walk through the tigers and begins to sing a song... I forget which one, but I think it was a song we used to sing at OKUMC.... the man's increasing fear/knowledge of his eventual death somehow leaked into the girl's mind... The one who was so sure at the beginning ended with one drop of doubt before she reached the end. No, the tigers didn't get her, but the dream ended before I could find out.

So, I ended up Skyping with my family finally.

It's a 4-day weekend for me here in Korea because we get an extra Mon-Tues. off for Buddha's Birthday, which seems ironic 'cause why would Buddhists celebrate his birth birth..doesn't that mean he's a "he" and a "man" and not a "Buddha." There's a beginning and end to him? Defining boundaries? *???* There are aspects of Buddhism I can relate to since it's similar to Christianity, but other aspects make me all confuddled.

Anyways~ I found out some distraught news from my brother, and it got me to break down in tears after the session was over. I haven't done this much crying since I first got to Korea. Before then? Back when I was in the States. Coming to Korea I'm a bit "stress-free," but none of the problems from back home changed. I either don't know what's going on or I have Korea to distract me.

My mom may be in a relationship with a questionable man, which causes our family to worry about her safety.

I can no longer move in with my sister in San Diego because.. well, you don't need to know (nothing bad though).

My brother and his family (wife, two kids) couldn't get the house they wanted because of horrible practices of a certain loan lender.

My brother thinks, and I don't like that he's right on this, him, his family (wife, two kids), my mother, and I should move in together into a house when I come back from Korea.

*breathe*

Oh, yeah~ my father and sister are on terrible terms now. He is also planning on returning to Korea permanently in the next two months. In a sad fortunate way.. I'm happy he'll be in Korea (in a selfish way... more for the well-being of my family than for his happiness). I just need to make sure we have as little as many family reunions during the rest of my time in Korea.

*sigh* I sound horrible and miserable, but.. while it seems like a time of mourning, I know our family will pull through whatever crap is thrown at us, and yes, A LOT has been thrown at us. Once we get over one obstacle.. we realize that it was one minute piece of a giant hole we've been in... We can do it!!!

God will make a way. He always has.

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
You lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today

-- Don Moen

*{I guess no camera for me. Need to start saving up for that *house* we'll be getting..eventually.. hopefully.}