I wish I knew where to start. Ever.
There are just so many thoughts that I don't know which matters sometimes.. and if it does matter, how do I prioritize? Also, on this note, I'm pretty sure I have a mild form of ADHD (or passive ADHD), but just never been officially tested to check. Oh well, too late to check now I guess, but just the thought of having it makes sense of a lot of question marks in my life. Like why it'd take me 30 minutes to pray to God because I went on so many different tangents not thinking about the prayer.. why my writing and thinking are so disjointed at times -- all the time; why I have the problem of interrupting people; why I can't be concise in my speaking... tangents tangent tangent. Oh, and not really recollecting any real substantial information from all the books I read in middle and high school. I'll read pages and pages over and over. Sometimes 5x, but I'll still remember nothing from the page. I'll just be thinking about how weird my hand looks or focus on the whirring sound of the computer next to me. Ironic thing is.. if I turned off the computer and took away all the distractions, then I thought it'd be harder to focus/study. I needed those distractions to retain an iota of information from the book.
Oh, and the reason I wanted to write this post: I still want to write a book on my family. Just a historical biography of what has happened to my family. Whether or not I try, it'd still be written through my biases, so it'll probably come off as a "Korean drama." That's not exactly what I'm going for, but I'm interested in learning about my family's history..
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{Trying to cram 12 years of education into 1.5 months.. yay studying for the CSET ><}
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