[edit/side-note: This post helps me relieve some stress. No need for concern. I find that I need moments of venting before I continue to be my perky self :]
My 17-year old self, hopped up on sugar and adrenaline, hopefully thinks, "Just *one* more year of this..."
Pre-SAT, SAT, ACT, if necessary, AP tests, etc.
Then college applications (without letters of recommendation 'cause I was too afraid to ask for any, but now realize I had many teachers of whom I was close with).
My 20-year old self, sleepy and questioning life, stresses for the next few years thinking, "Is this my quarter life crisis?"
Essay upon essay. Due date upon due date. Midterms. Finals. Rinse and repeat. Midterms. Research. Papers. Cram nights. Coffee. Finals. Hit repeat. First day. Due dates. Finals.
It's all a blur.
My current 25-year-old self asks, "It never ends, does it?"
CBEST, CSET, and RICA on top of papers, projects, and EdTPA in the midst of job searches, applications, and interviews.
*take a breath* *feel the heart beat*
It slows... at first. Now, I can feel the pulse of blood in my throat. The stress remains.
State it. Verse it. Theorize it. List it. Print it out. Make it real.
If only my thought came as neatly packaged as all the words in the prompts on the applications and exams I have and will complete.
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{My mind is trailing off into different forks of my mind. Whether or not my mind wanders, I will finish this EdTPA! :}
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