Growing means learning.. not hating

I just wanted to state something simple that needs to be reiterated over time. Though simple and oftentimes, redundant.. it still holds true:


Sometimes we have to get hurt before we can get better.


And.. it's been such a long journey -- though it's not over yet.
I feel that when I talk, argue, and anything remotely close enough to discussing my family's issues (includes my father's side, my mother's side, and immediate family), it seems like people are always pitting one or the other person as the "bad" one when really.. we all made mistakes. I guess when I was younger I was easily swayed by people's gossip of one or another. It made me either like them more (+ points) or detest them more (- points). Now, I try my best to listen and see things for how it was/is. Both sides have their valid reasons for having done what they did, but they also are at fault.


I'm no saint either, but I'm trying hard to stay... logically emotional? Emotionally logical? I want to heal my heart, but remain as sane as possible.


Anyways, I'm glad I'm in Korea. I'm even glad my dad visits me as much as it pains me somehow. We're slowly getting closer again. It's not the same, and I'm not sure if I'll be comfortable enough to go to him in tears, but at least we can talk about it. He's giving me the time and space to heal. Now that was only... 7+ years of prayer? Just gotta keep on praying.. and pray for the rest of my family, too.


* {Pray Until Something Happens.. and then some~ <3}